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Name: Kelly
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 10/19/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Guitar, Epsilon
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
3/25/2004
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| It has been a while since I have been on my Xanga. I know everyone missed hearing about my exciting life. Last Sunday I drove home to VA, and I have been having 24 hour non-stop bliss with my parents. Not to mention they find the need to tell me how dissapointed they are in me in well... not so many words. I've spent time with my sister at our resturant. that has been fun. Was there tonight and we had this techno/electronic -like band from PA... they sucked! When you bust out "The artist formaly known as Prince"- When Doves Cry, You know you have a bad band. I'm playing and singing during lunch on Sunday. I'll probably suck, too. I auditioned for the band at the school. I hope I got in. I really need to be appart of a group like that. It is such a big help with my walk. I need to be appart of that kind of fellowship. I feel like God can't forgive me. And I know that the Bible says he will and does, but I just don't see why. Even love doesn't seem like a good enough reason sometimes... Since I've been at a Christian college, surrounded by God and Godly people, I've never felt further from Him. It's got to be my fault because it's never God's. It's that whole... "Did I move, or did God move?" thing... I want to stop moving... if it is me. | | |
| Ok, school is over and not I'm taking a May mester. Got myself a nice little appartment with Libby! I don't like being there by myself. It is a little scary. Lots of noises and stuff. Mostly from the people above me.
I really like the rain. It feels so nice.
Duckie is watching my fish.
I'm sleeping at Duckies tonight because Libby went home to see her bro graduate.
"Since when does hockey have cheerleader?"- Duckie
So, on the 18th will be 4 years with my boy friend. hmm.... yeah, he bought a truck the other day.... I don't think it is that sparkly! A ring would have been cheeper.
So.... perhaps the next time you see me I will be engaged.... yeah, probably not...
Anyway... bye everyone! | | |
| Everyone needs to come and see the one act plays. They are gunna be really good. I think their should be a seperate show for RC students, and it should be free... donations only. I think that would get more people in the doors and get butts in the seats. Ok, so I have 10 hours left for my high school observation. I'm sending my rez to a private school to see about teaching in 2005. I want to go to grad school so badl, but I need to work and make money for it. Mom and dad don't like to pay for that kind of thing. Ok, Kevin Spacey is really hot! Ok.. sorry. Yeah, so I want to gt my MA in theater. Havn't decided if I want to do performance of more of the technical side of it. I really want to write plays and books... of course when I told my mother that she said, "Your unna be a starving artist!" I realize none of my work will be taken seriously untill after I'm dead, but to write a great American novel or a masterpiece play... not masterpeice theater... would be so amazing. Of course, my boyfriend doesn' seeme all that supportive of me doing theater. Theater, as a perfession, whether one acts or not, is not looked upon highly. It is a "weird" ocupation. And ou know the stigma that folows... I must be Gay if I do theater... oh, sor Dr. K... I mean I must be homosexual if I do theater. Of course, this seteriotype usually accompanies males while women get the stigma of being eather a "wild-flower" (AKA. mrs. light) or being a really big bitch. I for one do not fall into any of the following categories (atleast I hope not). I have confessed to many of you my attraction for those of the same sex, but that is because I don't think their is anything wrong with enjoying what God has created. I don't have any sexual desires for the same se. The thought of ksing a woman is just revolting, butif I were a man, there are many women I would be very interested in. Now before you read on...NO! I'M NOT A HOMOSEXUAL. I JUST LOVE THEATER!!!! Anyway.. so I don't think my boyfriend is comfortable telling people that his soon-to-be fiance is "one of those theater people". I guess it is a little uncomfortable for someone who is a mechanical engeneer. I know he is afraid that I won't make money. But you know, he makes enough to support us when we do get married. Perhaps he would be more supportive if the job I wanted would pay me $50K a year. Why can't I just Go to grad school and sit at home and write plays or have nanies and cook and join the PTA? Why can't I teach if I want to? I can.. I can do whatever I want, and I know I will no matter what my boyfriend says. He doesnt own me, but he better support me. If he won't do that then I don't want to be with him. I'v dated the same guy for 4 year!! 4 years! no proposal, yet. I was 17 when I met him. I have not dated or kissed another guy since then. Do you know what it is like to be around a guy everyday and have the biggest crush on him and never get to tell him or ask him out because ou choose to be with a man who you really do love. There is one in particular who I tell myself, if he asked me out I would o ou with him. ut, I know I won't. I couldn't do that to my boyfriend. I love him to much. Damb Devotion! Damb Loyalty. Eve was not weak!I finally understand now what real temptation is. Eve... I am Eve. | | |
| so, I got myself a Super nintendo on e-bay. It will be here on at the end of the week. It is a pretty bad time for it to arrive seeing as though I have a thousand papers and projects to do. I have a 10 page paper and I only have 4 pages to write. Ok, and I have to finish reading two books. I should probably turn off Saved By the Bell, but it is the episod where Belding's brother (Rod) comes to Bayside and wants to take the students of a Rafting trip. Little do they know he is an ass and is going to set them up for a fall; he would rather ave an afair with a fligt attendent then hang out with Zack and the gang. Well, can you blame him... I would rather have an afair witht he flight attendent then go rafting with Zack. Ok... the next episode is starting. Got to go watch it! | | |
| I spent about 4 hours playing video games last night... I love it! I want to go play it again. If anyone is selling a super nintendo let me know! ok cool beans! | | |
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